INEFFABLE AGONY.
It takes over your heart and makes you hollow deep inside. It slowly gets to your ability of motion and then you cannot even run from it by fooling it through another activity. What is left of you is vulnerability and weakness. The door of relief seems to go far away in the dark. It was all, your last hopes were residing on. You look pale, your eyes go red. It feels like you will burst into pieces, the very next moment, yet somehow you are holding up. You are finding it difficult to thrive anymore. You are tired. The pain is carving its way to your brain and its hurts. Hurts like hell. You want to scream but you know nobody is going to hear. ONLY YOU. It will be a noiseless scream of your soul. It feels like being brain dead yet alive in the most incorrigible way. You know nobody can help you because nobody can see it. It’s all hidden underneath that beautiful shell you wear.
You hit yourself really hard. You open your eyes, full of tears. And you realize how it would be like watching your worst fear come true…
The thing about endings
ReplyDeleteis that it's not only
that something ended
it also means
something else may start
Maybe life knocks you down but
In the end you can either
Stay down or get back up
Stay down and think
About what I might have been
Or.......
Get back up...
And look again for that missing
End....
The post is not about the thought that endings are the new beginnings but its abou realising your worst fears.
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